No. im not okay

tonight

tonight is not right
i feel like im gonna bite
listen to me i dont wanna fight
just want  you out of sight
is that not okay
you see your turning my world all gray
but on a whim theres him
hes here to stay
just hope i dont chase him away
he talks to me every day
he loves me and i love him
he makes me feel better
though tonight i just dont feel right
nothing seems to be working to get me out of this weird mood
i didnt even really touch my food
i feel like a little mouse in this fucking house
all she does is bitch bitch bitch
she treats me like a witch
or thats how i feel
sometimes i wish i could talk to you nan.
youd understand whats going on
youd understand how i feel
tell me something to get me out of this
what do i do this mood is
just really not good for me
i dont feel like myself today
i feel like im just a fuck up
like everyones ignoring me when really
im ignoring myself
ive delt with screaming bratty children all day
i just wanna run away from everything
like alice in wonderland
maybe ill find a talking rabbit to help guide me through
whatever the fuck is going on
maybe ill suck myself into a video game
i need a way to escape this world somewhere ill be okay

DO NOT READ K

Butterflies 

Butterflies in my tummy
When you say i love you
Baby i know its true 
cause i love you too
everytime i see your smile
baby i smile for a long while
when i look into your eyes
its like a winter frost
where you cant help but get lost
the smile on your lips is yummy to my heart
cause i get butterflies in my tummy

sunshine smile

 you are the
ray of sunshine that brightens my day
everything you do makes me fall more and more for you
you are the reason that i smile when i wake up in the morning