No. im not okay

tonight

tonight is not right
i feel like im gonna bite
listen to me i dont wanna fight
just want  you out of sight
is that not okay
you see your turning my world all gray
but on a whim theres him
hes here to stay
just hope i dont chase him away
he talks to me every day
he loves me and i love him
he makes me feel better
though tonight i just dont feel right
nothing seems to be working to get me out of this weird mood
i didnt even really touch my food
i feel like a little mouse in this fucking house
all she does is bitch bitch bitch
she treats me like a witch
or thats how i feel
sometimes i wish i could talk to you nan.
youd understand whats going on
youd understand how i feel
tell me something to get me out of this
what do i do this mood is
just really not good for me
i dont feel like myself today
i feel like im just a fuck up
like everyones ignoring me when really
im ignoring myself
ive delt with screaming bratty children all day
i just wanna run away from everything
like alice in wonderland
maybe ill find a talking rabbit to help guide me through
whatever the fuck is going on
maybe ill suck myself into a video game
i need a way to escape this world somewhere ill be okay

DO NOT READ K

Butterflies 

Butterflies in my tummy
When you say i love you
Baby i know its true 
cause i love you too
everytime i see your smile
baby i smile for a long while
when i look into your eyes
its like a winter frost
where you cant help but get lost
the smile on your lips is yummy to my heart
cause i get butterflies in my tummy

sunshine smile

 you are the
ray of sunshine that brightens my day
everything you do makes me fall more and more for you
you are the reason that i smile when i wake up in the morning

you(:

I like you



i like your smile
your laugh your giggle 
your smile the way you look at me (:
the way you talk your so southern (:
i like alot about you but 
most importantly 
i like the way you like me 
and the way i like you. (:

chains

You''ve got chains on my heart,
And on my soul. 
Putting padlocks on my arms, feet, and mouth, 
I''ve got no say nor control. 
Your grip stern and affirmative, 
Chokes me up inside. 
I drown in it from the inside and out. 
I can''t stand up to you, 
Rather I am pushed to ground. 
These words alone, take so much effort to say. 
Because with every breath I take, 
The will to speak just drifts away.
I have so many chains and locks, that ties my whole being up. 
I hope time passes by, 
Enough so that eventually I can find the key, 
to my many chains and locks.
Finally, so that all of it may stop. 


Walking away from everything you know and finding yourself..

mirror

life like a mirror

a piece of shattered glass

your heart like glass

thrown to the ground shattered

shattered with so much pain

pain thatll never go away

when you gotta pick up the pieces

its like a razor hitting your skin

feeling like shattered glass all over again

bitch

this poem and words written on paper is about me and my best friends and how shes not

allowed to love because her parents say so

this world i assure you is so screwed up

im seventeen and have seen people be judged day by day

my best friend shes in love with another girl i accept them and love both of them

who cares what gender they are

love is love

baby i love you with all my heart

im sorry i cant be with you this world its fucked up

why cant we just live in a world where everyone can live in peace and harmony

where age or race or gender doesnt matter

this world baby its tearing me down and shattering me into pieces like a mirror falling

i can tell im going to cry myself to sleep tonight because the person in my house

my own goddamn mother shes preventing me from seeing you

baby she doesnt see you like i do

shes you as a monster as someone whos gonna hurt me just

she has excuse after excuse of why i cannot love you

but baby lets make her see how i love you

i love you and i wanna be with you

and laugh at charlie sheen on my couch

swing on the swing in your arms by the garage

make jokes and get laughs and see your smile

your beautiful smile