i know your still here

Even though you''re not with me
I see you all the time
In my thoughts and in my dreams
You''re never hard to find

Everyday i think
"Well maybe you''ll come back"
But then reality hits me
It hits me like a smack

I know you''re in a better place
But again i still see
That here is where you belong
Here...with me

I didn''t tell you how much i loved you
But now that you''re gone i think i should say
You will never leave my heart
Even till this very day

the new me

All the while i a have been
Living up to your expectation
Losing all my relation
I had wit both my friends and lover
Surprise surprise
I''ve grown,
Although it hasn''t showing,
I''ve shed the old skin and
Bringing the new into a better light
A better atmosphere.
Cause this girl for one
Aint gonna take those shit nowhere.
Spend my days and night
Praying that i could see the light
Now that i have
I''m not going down without a fight...

Out with the old!
Bring in the new!
Cause no one will be walking in my shoe.
For one,
This girl''s getting rid of those catalyst
And rebuild my life over again
This time doing it my way.
New friends!
New family!
I cant be sad all the time.
I''ve got to have fun
And see what the world is made of.

One day...
Just one day...
This girl is going to fly like dove
Showering down to you my love.
Although you are not worth it.
I think you deserve it.
Cause without you
There wouldn''t be this change.
So you wont be missed...
But!
You''ll also not be forgotten.

you and i

I dreamt this dream of you and I,
and all my fears were gone,
you sang me a loving song,
oh why oh why did i have to wake,
to this lonely world,
where you and i cant be,
but soon i will fall back to sleep,
where i can see,
and where we will be again!

to teddy from a lost child

Teddy, I've been bad again
My mommy told me so;
I'm not quite sure what I did wrong
But I thought you might know.

When I woke this morning
I knew that she was mad
Cause she was crying awful hard,
And yelling at my dad.

I tried my best to be real good
And do just what she said
I cleaned my room all by myself,
I even made my bed.

But I spilled milk on my good shirt
When she yelled at me to hurry
And I guess she didn't hear me,
When I told her I was sorry

Cause she hit me awful hard, you see,
And called me funny names;
And told me I was really bad
And I should be ashamed.

When I said "I love you Mommy",
I guess she didn't understand;
Cause she yelled at me to shut my mouth
,Or I'd get smacked again

So, I came up here to talk to you
Please tell me what to do
Cause I really love my mommy,
And I know she loves me, too

And I don't think my mommy means,
To hit quite so hard;
I guess sometimes, grown ups forget
How big they really are

So Teddy, I wish you were real
And you weren't just a bear
Then you could help me find a way
To tell mommies everywhere

To please try to understand
How sad it makes us feel;
Cause the outside pain soon goes a way,
But the inside never heals

And if we could make them listen,
Maybe the'd understand;
So other children just like me
Wouldn't have to hurt again

But, for now, I guess I'll hold you tight,
And pretend the pain's not there.
I know you'd never hurt me,
So goodnight, Teddy Bear...

friend like no other

You''re always there to motivate me
Putting out your best to set my soul free
Of the heavy burdens that i have to bear
And to cast away all the things that i fear

The day you told me that you weren''t well
It made me mad...as mad as hell''
Cause my biggest fear
Was knowing that one day I''ll no longer have you here.

I dont ever wanna tell you goodbye
Just thinking about it makes me wanna cry
But regardless of what happens you''ll be in my heart, always and forever''
Cause you''re a great friend...a friend like no other.
Dedicated to one of my best friends in the whole wide world...<3>